the beach

in
laughing and having fun
the degrassi movie
forgiveness
progression


out
allergic reactions on the face
invisible man
drama
rosie's ear infection D:



p.s- i shouldn't of given in so easily.

i'm bored out of my mind.
marissa needs to get off of work,
so that she can come over.
i think i'll force her to go
to homegrown with me.
i haven't been there in
over a week, it's crazy.

p.s- i'm in a good mood today :D

shameless

I wish there was a force from up above that would will me to work on AP summer assignments.
It's getting ridiculous.
I have two weeks to read: "How to Read Literature Like a Professor", "Invisible Man", and "Tuesdays with Morrie".
You could say that I am screwed, big time.
Give me inspiration, please!



By the way, this is probably the first post ever where I have used correct grammar.
:D

lullabies

not to quote the song or anything but,
i actually am waiting to say i miss you, i'm so sorry.

i wish i could work up the guts to say something.
the first day of school is coming up very soon.
i don't know what i'm going to do.
it will be awkward and horrible, if this goes unsettled.
i want to talk to you, i really really do.
but i'm afraid of what you will say.
i want an apology, but i also have hope that you'd take me back.
although, i know you won't.
that's why i'm so scared.
because i want something different than you.
apparently, you're better off without us.
but we miss you, miss it.
we miss the three of us.
the way it was in november and december.
this could be better.
it doesn't and won't be the same as it was.
but it can be something.
not nothing.
i wish you'd give us a second chance.
i wish you'd give the three of us a second chance.
i never told you how upset i was.
but now i want you to know.
i was devastated, crushed.
and i acted as if it didn't phase me.
i didn't want you to see me so vulnerable.
but now i do.
because i feel like something needs to be settled.
if things were solved, we wouldn't feel like this.
you say it was meant to be this way,
but i really don't think it was.
i really want to talk to you.
i wish you'd give me the time of day.
i wish you cared.

running from lions

in a few seconds you will probably be thinking, "ugh, another one of those?!"
but oh well :)!

in
wearing eyeliner
listening to all time low on shuffle
working on my ap summer assignments
the what a catch, donnie video


out
the rain/ thunderstorms
getting schedules in the mail
missing the past and the people in it
senior pictures

student timetable

so, i got my schedule today :)

english IV (honors) - hall-lewis
ap psychology - klaich
yearbook II (honors) - apicella
afm - dixon

visual arts 1 - hitesman
ap english IV - hall-lewis
yearbook II - apicella
meteorology - inge

walls

so, you might've thought that my last post was crazy and weird.
i have one explanation for it.
marissa wrote it.
that should clear up your confusion.


anyways, after what i saw yesterday, i think this is appropriate...
"I'd run and hide at the call of my name,
It was obvious you were to much for me,
Oblivious, I was young and bitchy,
In retrospect I wouldn't do it again,
Stop talking shit to every one of your friends,
I'm not the same girl you knew back then."

yes, i know i changed some of the words around.
but now it just makes so much sense.
i think you would agree.

okay....now it's time to change the subject.
marissa came over last night. she brought her huge bag full of string and we made bracelets. while making bracelets, we just talked and listened to all time low. it was good. i now have two more bracelets, which brings my grand total to 11. then we came down stairs and harassed people on facebook im while singing songs from the little mermaid. marissa was getting creeped out by my interpretative dances, but i quite liked them. after all the dancing, i was exhausted so we went to sleep.
not much as happened since then, neil just came to pick up marissa. i'm home alone today, due to the fact that my sister started her job at ace hardware today. i say that one day this week, i go harass her at her place of employment. that sounds like fun to me. i should use this time home alone today to work on my ap summer work and apply for a few jobs. i'm in dire need of a job. i'm having a large cash flow problem...i don't have a cash flow. my mission for the day is to change that.

OH! i wanted to mention that i have absolutely fallen in love with all time low this week. i've listened to them before, i mean, it's kind of hard not to listen to them when one of my best friends is obsessed with them, but i've never liked them this much before. yesterday, i was in this weird, strange, somewhat depressed mood and the only thing that could cheer me up was listening the all time low on shuffle. 77 days :)

i'm off to start my job applications now.
wish me luck!

HAIGIRL

hai girl
i iz here.
and by i, i mean me.
who is this me?
the world may never know,
but it's probably not hard to figure out.
like most of the people i know....

BAI GIRL.

-i/me

so today, i was in the shower and i was thinking...
therapist is really the rapist.
i mean, it has the word rapist in it.
that worries me.
marissa finds it comical.
but i find it scary.

please don't give me therapy.