lullabies

not to quote the song or anything but,
i actually am waiting to say i miss you, i'm so sorry.

i wish i could work up the guts to say something.
the first day of school is coming up very soon.
i don't know what i'm going to do.
it will be awkward and horrible, if this goes unsettled.
i want to talk to you, i really really do.
but i'm afraid of what you will say.
i want an apology, but i also have hope that you'd take me back.
although, i know you won't.
that's why i'm so scared.
because i want something different than you.
apparently, you're better off without us.
but we miss you, miss it.
we miss the three of us.
the way it was in november and december.
this could be better.
it doesn't and won't be the same as it was.
but it can be something.
not nothing.
i wish you'd give us a second chance.
i wish you'd give the three of us a second chance.
i never told you how upset i was.
but now i want you to know.
i was devastated, crushed.
and i acted as if it didn't phase me.
i didn't want you to see me so vulnerable.
but now i do.
because i feel like something needs to be settled.
if things were solved, we wouldn't feel like this.
you say it was meant to be this way,
but i really don't think it was.
i really want to talk to you.
i wish you'd give me the time of day.
i wish you cared.