on the eve of 2009

out of sixteen year of living, 2008 was one of my favorite years. i met wonderful people, i went to amazing places, and i learned so much about myself. 2008 has changed me, i've become a better person because of all that's happened. i just only hope that good things come in 2009 as well. in memory of 2008, i will tell of my year.
towards the beginning of the year, nothing too special happened until february. a couple days after valentine's day, me and my family traveled to visit hayley for the first time in newport news, virginia. i had such a great time and i cried for the whole day that i had to leave.two months later, it was time for spring break. me and emily decided to bring one of our good friends from school, lauren, to hilton head island with us. we had so much fun renaming the people at the resort and riding our bikes all around. we even went to the HGTV green home and we saw 21 :)
after spring break, spring seemed to fly by and before i knew it, summer had arrived. usually, my family has a huge trip planned for us for the summer, but in 2008, we took a different route. instead, we stayed home. on june 28th, hayley came to visit on her way back from florida. i was so extremely excited that hayley finally got to come experience holly springs, north carolina. throughout her visit, we went to carolina beach, three different malls, and my sixteenth birthday party. i pretty much had the worst 16th birthday ever, but hayley cheered me up.
ten days later, i went back up to virginia for warped tour. warped tour was the best day of my life. i saw the academy is, cobra starship, katy perry, say anything, mayday parade, and most importantly, MADINA FREAKING LAKE. i also met madina lake that day. i got my homemade shirt signed and a got a picture with matthew and nathan leone. although, i got beat up and severely sunburnt, july 15th was my favorite day of summer 2008.towards the end of july, i did many strange, off the wall things. i went to the jonas brothers concert with my new friend, sam, and i also went to the release party of 'breaking dawn'. i went to the release party, even when i haven't read the books!the summer quickly ended, and school started. nothing special happened with school, actually, nothing special happened with life until october. in october, i met megan gillespie and marissa barablato. they soon became my closest friends. we did something every weekend for the past four months. they are crazy, fun people that i love hanging out with and they taught me that i should just be myself at all times. we've done many fun things together like went trick or treating, going to shows, wii fitting, and everything else imaginable. i'm so grateful for meeting both of them.
in december, my brother, brad, graduated from college. this was a monumental event. me, my family, and brad's girlfriend, kayce, went to see him receive the diploma. it gave me hope that one day, i will too graduate from the university of north carolina wilmingtonbrad's graduation was the last of many things i did this year. as you can see, my year was full of life-changing, amazing things. i've started my junior year off well, and now i sincerely hope to finish it the same way. goodbye 2008, hello 2009.

happy new year, everyone ;)

choking on the "deep forest" between me and the world

today was amusing, to say the least.
even the start of my day put a smile on my face.
i woke up at eleven thirty after suffering through a bizarre dream. first thing i did was run into the bonus room to play dance, dance revolution. that game is crazy addicting. although, my mom turned the game off after only a half hour because we were going to meet up in sanford to go to lunch with my grandma (gramma, as emily calls her). lunch was kind of agonizing, besides the fact that i got to see my grandma. 1) i hate applebee's, and that were we went to lunch 2) emily was acting...strange the entire time. we drove back to holly springs and stopped at walmart. i got some rad new beads. i made a pandora, sentz, gillz, and rizz bracelets! the gillz and rizz ones i plan to give to megan and marissa. once i finished my bracelets, hayley called! we talked for an hour and then we three-wayed with her boyfriend. and apparently, i sound like a....baby lamb?! anyways, now i'm getting ready for bedtime because tomorrow, i hope to do something with gillz, unless she gets grounded again. i'm crossing my fingers, yo.

i hate being left out

next week will be horrible.
i don't have anything to do until wednesday, and that's if those plans don't fall through.
it's times like these when i feel like i have no friends.

tary bear is out of town! i miss her like crazy and i don't get to see her until late next week.
lauren never answers her phone, but that doesn't matter because she usually can never do anything anyways.
megan and marissa are always hanging out with each other.
brad and kayce are leaving on sunday.

i hate winter break.
i wish school started back up on monday.
or i wish mom would take us to either michigan or virginia.
i could probably convince her actually.
i don't know.
i'm sad.

but i did go shopping with my christmas money today and i got a new stud belt, a kuromi necklace, twelve new bows, a hello kitty necklace, dora barrettes, hot pink heart sunglasses, and a pink and green cheetah bag.

merry christmas, i could care less

as everyone already knows, today is christmas :)
i have to admit that this christmas was one of the best that i've ever had minus the fact that grandma didn't come visit. she picked cruising the caribbean over tearing open presents with her favorite grandchildren.
i know the holidays are supposed to be all about the family, not the presents but the main reason for this post is to list the things i received for christmas. i'd also like to know what you all got, so let me know :)

1) a green sony cyber shot camera <3
2) my mom's diamonds from her wedding band in which she put into a necklace for me. it's probably my favorite gift because it means a lot to me and my mom. i'm so glad that she gave me the necklace. one day, i can give it to my children.
3) red delia's jeans and purple cord delia's pants.
4) gloomy bear!
5) cobra starship sass attack shirt.
6) a red and black plaid weather coat with faux fur in the hood.
7) rainbow hello kitty knee highs.
8) purple and black shirt with a black tank top underneath.
9) dance dance revolution (for the whole family, i may add)
10) black and white plaid pajama pants.
11) fall out boy calendar!
12) 155 dollars (from all my relatives)

that's what i got for christmas, minus the stocking stuffers. i can't wait until i go to a show to use my new camera. i've never had my own camera before so i'm really excited. i'm going to take a million pictures everyday.
and, i think i have an idea of how i'm going to spend my christmas money...

girl

i'd like to make it known that for twenty-four hours straight, i said 'girl' at either the beginning or ending of all of my sentences.
ask marissa, she did it too.
:)

sunday night was my christmas cookie and gift exchange. it was crazy fun! we took like 7403840238 pictures and even recorded our own episode of "maury". while at the party, rizz, gillz, and i exchanged our gifts. rizz gave me this rad cobra starship shirt and dora the explorer bows! gillz gave me a hello kitty blanket which i absolutely adore. after the party, rizz and gillz spent the night and thats when we started the 'girl' talk. my parents were so furious with us, but in a loving way. the next morning, megan left and then marissa stayed a little longer. we were playing harry potter clue when my mom yells downstairs asking if i made the light-up deers in our front yard mate. i was yelled no?! so, me and marissa went into the yard and the deers were arranged in a sexual position. come on! who goes into my front yard and does that? it was quite funny, although quite lame. marissa went home and then came back to my house a few hours later to go to the mall with me. i succeeded in getting both emily's and hayley's christmas gifts, which was my main goal. at this point in time, we discovered that we've probably said 'girl' over 500 times that day. we went to moe's for dinner and then took marissa home.

now in the present tense: i woke up so sick this morning. i'm currently sneezing, coughing, and blowing my nose. why do i have to be sick at christmas? good news! brad and kayce are coming home today :)

3,2,1....we go live

yesterday was a mixture of extremely good events and
extremely bad events.
but let's not get into that...

anyways, today, i have many things to get accomplished.
i need to clean the house like crazy.
make cookies and other delectable things.
go get hayley's christmas present and a gift for my party tomorrow.

let's hope i can get it all done.

p.s- if your coming to my house tomorrow, make cookies plz!

but i'm no good at math and besides the dollar is down

in
zach roloff, me, and the goslin family aka the TLC famliy :)
getting interviews for yearbook during french class
itsnotjustafad.com
spencer pratt



out
sass attacks
food
english class dicussions that make me roll my eyes
running out of blank ink in the printer

fall out boy shirts > kids in africa

although, i already illegally downloaded folie a deux,
i bought the real thing today. i'm so OCD about the treatment of my fall out boy CD's,
that's why they are all in a shadow box that is attached to my wall.
i carried folie a deux around wal-mart as if it were a infant.
and it took me about a half hour to open the case and i had to save the peeled off sticker from the top.
when i opened the album booket, i about had a freak attack.
i saw patrick vaughn stump.
i texted hayley and i was like WTH?! VAUGHN?! but i just learned that he changed
his middle name for his mom, which is super sweet of him.
ah, it feels great to have folie a deux in my hands.
today is a good day :)

i'm half doomed and your semi-sweet

this weekend was crazy to the max.
filled with uncomfortable tights.
uncomfortable nights.
and uncomfortable fights.

saturday was brad's graduation, we went to wilmington for the day
and then came back after a bit of venturing around and visiting.
brad and kayce came back with us so they could spend some time with us.
this time was not well spent. due to chaos of alcohol, i was woken up on multiple occassions.
i was woken up at two and five.
when i woke up at five, i heard drunken sobs and yelling coming from downstairs.
i hate seeing my brother so drunk that he can't barely talk.
i was in tears yelling for my brother to go to bed, which led to me in the conversation.
brad was crying saying things such as "pandora travels the world" and "i love pandora"
kayce came and slept on the blow up mattress of my floor as we tried to forget about the incident and sleep.
sunday was no better.
not a weekend to remember.

the cold, hard truth

marissa told me something today that really made me think.
and after pondering the thought, she's so very true.
now that i realize this, i'm back to where i was last year.
i don't have the close friends that i used to have and
i don't have the feelings of trust that i used to have.
where did it all go? who knows.
it just went, and it's been gone for a while now.
it'd be stupid to say i miss it, because it won't change anything.


as for today...

in
chick fil a fries
sitting in the hammock for hours with rizz and gillz
twirling megan's mustache with my big toe
random cats in the middle of fall out boy videos


out
tagging hairy nipple on facebook pictures
electronic banking monopoly
people who claim they hate asians
white chocolate with peppermint

boycott love

today was utterly horrible.
i'd explain it in this blog, but who knows who is going to read this.
crazy, crazy day.

bad grades and tears.
not a good mixture.
i hate teachers.
actually, i hate school in general.

i wish i had a shoulder to cry on right now.

megan > the list

in
asking teachers if they have a webkinz
awkwardly taking pictures during lunch
yearbook class
pokemon war


out
confrontational blog entries
sick webkinz pets
not having a drop of soda all day long
being cold/freezing

laterrrr:
FOLIE A DEUX LEAKED.
i'm so ecstatic. sitting here listening to this album, i'm on like cloud nine.
fall out boy, oh man.
i have complete faith in them.
i'm on the verge of tears, i'm so extremely happy.

that's what she said & vegan cupcakes night

so yesterday i didn't get a chance to blog.
i'll make up for lost time now. yesterday afternoon, i went to the apex christmas parade with megan and her family. it was alright, although i can't say going to parades are fun. i was freezing, but i wouldn't admit it for the sake that if i did, i'd have to wear a blanket over my shoulders because of megan's mom. bahaha! we went back to megan's house and played ATV games on her PS2 until we decided that it was time for webkinz. we played webkinz for about an hour and then went down to eat dinner. at dinner, we decided that our english teacher, mrs. fletcher, plays webkinz while we do our bellwork and timed writings. one day, we will hear "welcome to the curio shop, hope you find what your looking for". oh man, that was great. we went to marissa's house after that. although, it put it lightly, our experience started off on the wrong foot but it got better. we went downstairs and made vegan cupcakes/cookies while watching duran duran live in concert. the cupcakes were pretty nasty, not gonna lie. probably because they were gluten free. by this time, it was midnight so we went upstairs and attempted to sleep. megan took the pull out for herself leaving me to sleep in the tiny emo corner next to marissa's bed. it was super extremely uncomfortable. i woke up, watching britney spear, for the record with marissa, and then went home.
i totally watched "harry potter and the order of the phoenix" today and i cried. i thought it was really sad with surius died, but that's just me. i also realized that i luna lovegood is my second favorite harry potter character of all time, besides ron that is. ron weasley is my man candy. anyways, i went to the fuquay christmas parade just because my mom was jazzercising it in. after the parade was a party at my mom's friend's house and of course, she's there. if you don't know who she is, it doesn't matter. she is the only person in the world that i truly hate. it made my so angry, that i texted marissa and had to tell her all about it. now, i'm shuffling through piles of homework. christmas breaks, only two more weeks!

it's not enough to say that i miss you

nothing special happened today. it's been quite the drag, actually. the only things semi-interesting thing that i did was talk to megan. she called while babysitting and we talked for a long while. she's like one of the few people i can actually talk to without feeling super extremely awkward. for the whole two hours i was on the phone with megan, i heard "woo's" and "ahahah's" coming from the jazzercise party next door that my parents attended. it was hilarious, who knew that middle age men and women could have so much fun. but i'm really looking foward to tomorrow, i'm most likely going to the apex christmas parade with megan and then we are heading to marissa's house to watch a rupert grint movie and into the wild the movie, and finally make a vegan cake. i'm excited. this week in a whole has been great. i'm out of my slump, hip hip hooray and i'm neither irritated or annoyed at anyone and for once, all my friends are at peace with me. thank goodness for that. this entry is really short because i have nothing to complain about. whatta accomplishment.
:D
p.s- i dyed my hair yesterday.
it's midnight black, i love it.

down, set, one, hut, hut, hike

today, oh today, was painful.
first and second period seemed to last forever, especially french. i had all the funny guys sitting around my table, funny as in they think that being a complete pervert is cool. obscene gestures are so last year. lunch came around, boring to the nth degree. megan and marissa decided to ditch me for debate club, megan < debate club. everyone should know that! for the first half of lunch it was just me, emily, and lauren. lauren decided to read "night" and then FINALLY, marissa showed up. megan ditched me all together, but then came at the end of the lunch to catch up. it's so weird though, i usually talk to megan non-stop but today i said a total of two words to her. what's up with that? yearbook was great though. i finished "into the wild" and then i jammed out to "america's suitehearts" and "untouched" until the end of the period. now how epic is that? EPIC. english. timed writing. not any fun. maya angelou vs. some mexican lady. really lame. on the other hand, tomorrow will be a great day for two reasons. reason one: it's friday, but that's pretty much a given. reason two: sam and alyssa are most likely riding home with me to go to homegrown. i haven't hung out with them for a really long time and i miss then a lot. then....saturday...VEGAN CAKE PARTY with rizz and gillz.


that's all for today, folks.
:)

media blitz!

my mom is making me get rid of my cat.
i'm totally crushed and upset.
she was my baby, the only person that has always been there for me when no one else wanted to be.
she's going to leave, and who knows what will become of her.
if we give her to the pound, she'll die by the end of the week.
i need her to go to a good home, somewhere safe.
she deserves it.
i love her with all my heart.

break a leg

tonight.
paris hilton's my new BFF.
britney.
will/better.
WIN!


go britneyyyy.

anyways, since i don't steal fall out boy's music, i heard "america's suitehearts" for the first time today. let's just say that i think folie a deux will be epic. the album actually reminds me of from under the cork tree in a way. fall out boy is like god's gift to the world. words can't express how much i love them. i mean, i cry everytime i hear one of their new songs, it's like a freaking drug. oh man, 15 days.

the infamous list

in
twilight dicussions with aly in french class
daring megan to eat "un-eat-able" foods
bagels with nutella
lack of homework


out
angry honking fathers in the senior parking lot
excuses/lame attempts/frustration
orange zest
left-over thanksgiving food...bleh!



laterrrrr: i just got off the phone with hayley and i feel i should mention that is was really great. i missed hayley so badly and talking to her tonight made me realize that even though we haven't been talking as much, she still really is the greatest best friend i could ever ask for :)