fame < infamy

i'm so ready for summer to start, i'm majorly stressed out.
and i'm pissed cos i have like c's and d's and those grades aren't up to my usual a's and b's standards.
besides school everything has been so werid latelty.
i don't know who or what to depend on.
seems like one day varies hugely from the next.
one day my parents absolutely can not stand me and the next they can't get enough of me.
i'm so confused with everything and everyone.
so my only real outlet is this stupid blogspot in which no one reads.
i haven't cried in months until about two nights ago.
i guess i finally realized i can't count on anyone but myself.
people don't seem to be the people i thought they were.
and it's starting to freak me out.
like what have i got myself into, sorta.