this weekend hasn't turned out as planned

this weekend has been horrible.
from friday, i was at school until six then i came home and cried/slept for the rest of the night.
to saturday, which i thought would be a great day, that was filled with frustrations and yelling. me and my family went to charlotte on saturday to look at the university of north carolina charlotte. after the open house, i realized that i love the campus and i found what i am going to major and minor in, which is english and communication. once the open house ended, we went to find the massive IKEA store, but that just put everyone in a bad mood because we got lost on the way there. we actually did make it to the store, and bought nothing. after IKEA, we went to the mall. and then we came home. what a day, except not really.
then came sunday, possibly the worst of the weekend. everyone in my household as yelled at me at least once today, and why? i have no idea. and also, today lead me to realize that my friends don't care about me whatsoever and i know why. it's because i'm a huge bitch all the time. i realize that i act this way, but i'm not exactly sure how to stop acting that way. i get upset over the littlest things and overreact. i guess i just want someone to appreciate me for once. it seems as if i'm nothing to anyone these days, like they could careless if i just got up and walked out of their life. i just wish someone would tell me that i matter to them.


sorry about this jumble of a post.
i needed to get this off of my mind.