four more days.

today was a disaster.
i can't stand school anymore, i really can't.
the people that are surround me are suffocating.
it's hard to explain.
i just need to get away from a week, thankfully, that's what next week is for.
i also need to spend time with my best friend and just not think about holly spring, north carolina.
actually, it's not the people who are suffocating, it's this town.
i need to stop blogging when i'm in a pessemestic mood.


enough of being a negative nelly.
even though today sucked, there were it's positives.
yearbook was great today, we just sat around and watched "beetlejuice".
i love yearbook class so much.
and i'm not just saying that because the book is finished so now all we do is sit around, i'm saying it because it's true.
i adore the yearbook and the staff.
i sincerly hope i get editor in chief next year.
i have so many ideas for the yearbook next year, and did i mention megangillespie is going to be on the staff? heck to the yes.
hahaha, she's also going to be in my every other class because we signed up for the same exact classes on purpose in order to get the same schedule.
anyways, pray that i get editor in chief please.
:)

he wants my body

"Wow, I'm surprised you posted that publicly on my page. :-) You're probably just playing with me, but if you're serious, you'll have to get back to me when you're 18."
-RobRob :)

you don't know what you got, until it's gone

rest in peace breanna.
you were a great friend to both me and aly in french class.
we had some good times together making fun of how nick is always creepin'.
i will miss you.
i hope your in a better place.

this weekend hasn't turned out as planned

this weekend has been horrible.
from friday, i was at school until six then i came home and cried/slept for the rest of the night.
to saturday, which i thought would be a great day, that was filled with frustrations and yelling. me and my family went to charlotte on saturday to look at the university of north carolina charlotte. after the open house, i realized that i love the campus and i found what i am going to major and minor in, which is english and communication. once the open house ended, we went to find the massive IKEA store, but that just put everyone in a bad mood because we got lost on the way there. we actually did make it to the store, and bought nothing. after IKEA, we went to the mall. and then we came home. what a day, except not really.
then came sunday, possibly the worst of the weekend. everyone in my household as yelled at me at least once today, and why? i have no idea. and also, today lead me to realize that my friends don't care about me whatsoever and i know why. it's because i'm a huge bitch all the time. i realize that i act this way, but i'm not exactly sure how to stop acting that way. i get upset over the littlest things and overreact. i guess i just want someone to appreciate me for once. it seems as if i'm nothing to anyone these days, like they could careless if i just got up and walked out of their life. i just wish someone would tell me that i matter to them.


sorry about this jumble of a post.
i needed to get this off of my mind.

you know you're obsessed with your blog when...

you sign in on a school computer during lunch because you just realized that it has been over 24 hours seen you've last blogged.
anyways, yesterday was nothing too special. i came home from school and played guitar hero for about two hours. after that, i just went and laid in my bed, just to think. mostly because i was slightly ticked off, but hey, i need to stop getting mad about everything little thing. oh, and also, i need to stop being such an attention whore, it's getting ridicious. i went to the play later on last night with my sister and megan. it was so extremely long and i can't say that i liked it that much, btw (TWSS). anywho, the only good part about the play was laughing at the creepy parent in front of us. she was taking pictures of her daughter, over and over again. her daughter didn't even have a speaking role, it's was quite funny. also, CHRISL was quite funny as well. the play ended around ten so as soon as i got home, i crashed. that's all that my boring thursday amounted too.
14 days until i get to see my best friend!



V@G1N@ and P3N1$.

my favorite thing

you know what i really love?
i really love driving around with megan.
with all the windows down.
listening to cobra starship/clay aiken/pop goes punk 2 extremely loud.
screaming profane things to random people on the streets.
cheering for groups of bikers telling them "they can do it!"
it's seriously my favorite thing to do.

for old times sake

in
balderdash cards at lunch
www.sporcle.com
FML
skin so soft


out
the rain :(
chemistry labs that burn your eyeballs
yearbook final deadline week
frowning

media blitz.

not much as happened this week, just the normal activities that megan senter usually partakes in. monday and tuesday were nothing special, basically i went to school, came home, ate, and played ridiculous amounts of guitar hero. i have an unhealthy obsession. wednesday was quite fun. i had to attend a softball game from yearbook because this deadline i am covering the softball spread. i made megan come along because i didn't want to trek all the way over the fuquay alone. after that, we just laid on the hammock and talked about everything and anything. my hammock is seriously my favorite place to go to think and just enjoy the beautiful weather. thursday, i came home from school and i felt miserable. i'm guessing it's the lack of sleep that i have been receiving. i dream too much to get a good night sleep, and it's not even comprehendible dreams. i dream about snipers shooting me from my bedroom window and rupert grint shirtless. that last dream, i actually enjoyed quite a lot :) anyways, friday came along which signals the weekend. megan picked me up after school and we ventured off to target where we successfully purchased random items. the random items included two foam swords, a mini dora bat, hello kitty tights, a car air fresher, and punk goes pop 2. punk goes pop 2 is actually a really great album. i adore a day to remember's version of "cable car" and attack attack's version of "i kissed a girl". me and megan came back to my house and chilled here for a while until we decided to just drive around holly springs. i swear we covered every square mile of this tiny town. from sonic to womble park, we went everywhere. we finished our journey and then went to megan's house and slept. saturday, i woke up, came home, got dressed, and then went back to megan's house. marissa was there also, we had to celebrate PI day. get it? get it? like 3.14 on march 14th (3/14/09) we made an apple pie and played balderdash for also two hours. that game is perfect for our three minds :) we went to bed and then woke up to today. we just did random things in megan's house and then took a walk in the rain. it actually felt quite nice besides the fact that my stomach was about to explode, and why? i have no idea. on the brightside, i'm feeling better and enjoying a large cup of coffee. that's all for now little buddies.

on another note, 20 days until hilton head.

STOP IGNORING ME.
kthankz.

somebody turn the lights on

today was decent, besides my random feeling of extreme anger. emily dragged me to the movies today to go with her to see the jonas brothers 3D movie. kevin jonas was in that movie all too much, considering his head is a pubic forest. it was nice to do something with my emily because we hadn't hung out in awhile. after the movies, i came home and then went to dinner with brad and kayce. now, i'm here. i totally forgot to mention that i beat fall out boy trail this morning. i was so excited, too bad my score sucked major balls. i won with only patrick surviving, i fail xinifinity. back to now, i'm sitting here in the dark, alone. you know what sucks? being home alone on a saturday night. especially on a solitary saturday night, but i'll get over it because i'd WAY rather be here than over there....! so tonight is the final episode of solitary 3.0. i'm rooting for robrob, everyone else doesn't deserve it and then are lame and unentertaining, lol.


27 DAYS UNTIL I SEE MY BEST FRIEND.
i'm counting down the seconds.

what is going on?

i don't know what to do.
i'm sick of always sounding despressed and upset.
but i can't hide it for much longer.
i'm sick and tired of everyone.
i hate feeling alone, constantly.

spring break needs to come faster, please.