i've got troubled thoughts and self-esteem to match

last night was the happiest i've been in a very long time. i went onto my bed, all the lights off and turned on my ipod to listen to the new fall out boy song. i was prepared for the worst. i started to listen to it and it put a frown on my face but then it slowly became a smile. when the song started to end, i heard "where is your boy..." in my right ear and i automatically freaked out. the next thing i know i heard "going down, down..." in my left ear. and then "dance, dance", "this ain't a scene", and "thnks fr th mmrs" and finally, "growing up". when i heard "growing up", my eyes just welled up. i don't really know why i cried because i don't usually cry when i'm happy at all, last night being an exception. i listened to the song three or four more times and then just laid in bed and thought to myself about how much i really love and appreciate fall out boy. i was giving up on them, but "what a catch, donnie" renewed my faith in them. they are the only thing that is constant in my life, i mean, like pete always says "music just can't stop talking to you". it's always there for me and it's sad to say...but it feels like the only thing that is there for me and that's why i love fall out boy so much. since seventh grade, i've been one of their biggest fan and not to mention meeting them. meeting them changed my life completely! they are just so special to me that not even these words can express it. too bad "folie a deux" got pushed back to december 16th on release....i was getting really excited. i might even start a countdown...