here i stand

UGH!
i'm so mad.
everyone in holly springs is gay and out of control.
seriously i hate basically everyone besides hayley and lauren.
i don't know what the hell their problem is, and why they are so friggen obssessed with hayley.
uh, she's human you know...not god.
*you know what i mean hayley, that isn't a bad thing :D
apparently, my "friends" and hayley are planning me a party.
i'm sooo nervous, cause i really would prefer to know what they are planning.
but i can't, so i'll stop worrying now.
i wish i could babble on about my newest excitement, but that would be basically impossible for me to do as of now.
well i only have two real days of school left so i'm hella excited for summer.
although, i will have absolutely nothing to do all summer, except worry.
cause that's all i do.
and i'm super anxious that over summer i will lose all my friends.
if i don't see/text them a lot during the summer and they hang out with other people.
they will like forget about me.
and i can't afford to lose anybody right now.
ugh, i can't think about this right now...it's making me so anxious and shaky.
i'm out.